Time races by like a freight train.
Everything evades me while I stand out in the rain,
Waiting for a sign that I won’t keep lagging behind indefinitely;
It’s like God’s played some cruel joke on me.
I know I’m not the only one with regrets,
But it’s hard to reel it in when I come so close –
To be out of reach and soaking wet.
Out of breath, I’d rather watch it all pass me by;
Ever-in-limbo, poison ivy insides,
Silence is ill-fated; but, I sedate it with idle laughter.
I can’t hide in plain sight, so I just chain-smoke cigarettes;
Wait for you to leave, hope you saw the worst in me after all.
The sound of steel screeching never appealed to me,
It makes me feel insecure, unsure of what will become of me.
It’s easy to be pleased when everything is going right,
A lot harder to brace yourself for the fall with an axe to grind.
Illuminate the shadows of my soul,
Breathe for me, so I can catch up,
And uncover the missing fragments of myself.
So far, it’s been an uphill battle of self-doubt.
Wrap your arms around me, like they’re what’s been missing all along.
Breathe for me, so I can live up
To the hopes and dreams I’ve planned for myself.
So far, it’s been hell and I refuse to bail out.
Time flies by,
But the moments trail behind me.
I put my cigarette out, and take a deep breath.
In the distance, the sound of a train approaching
Makes me run for my life.