I Want to Die

I want to die,
Die because I am lost,
And I am no where to be found

I don’t want to try,
But life just don’t come easy
I have waited
In the pain and in self-pity for too long,
I want to realize,
that there’s more to life than just despair
And that I’m not just some mistake
I am evil,
I am darkness,
I am hatred,
I am lust,
I am the embezzlement that drives your business to bankruptcy,
I am the force that drives a father to abuse his children,
I am the boyfriend that breaks your heart,
I am the car crash that kills a single mother,
I am the success that won’t start,
I am the chronic cancer that slowly eats you away
I am the clouds on a rainy day
Why should we fear if fear itself
causes us to be fearful?
Why should we care
When the world is cruel
And too much to bear
Why must we live every day miserable
Not knowing what will happen
Open our eyes,
Derive us spirit and purpose
Chase away fears,
Give us a just of reality,
And dry away our tears,
Why can’t I be happy, God,
Why, oh why,
Sometimes I can’t take it,
I just want to die.


About humblefoot

Kyle Fisher (who often uses the alias Logan Rowley online and in his writing) has been enjoying writing since he was just 8 years old. His first formal publication was at the age of 13. He is now a spiritualist and openly queer author, perpetually searching for inspiration to create and learn more about the world around him. He is always drawn to the simplicity and uniqueness that life has to offer. He doesn’t identify with labels or socially constructed ideas about how the world should be. He believes that the world is your oyster, and that we all project our own destinies with the thoughts we choose to harbour about the universe. He is an idealistic, spiritualistic hippie who is just trying to find his place in this world, crafting each word to leave his mark, and promote love and equality among all people.
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